Lonely....

I'm feeling very lonely.... not the left at home by yourself lonely,this is a different kind of lonely.
I love my Hubby and I love my girls and family but looking at some recent events I'm starting to realize how much of an outcast I really am.
Alot of gals that I ran with in school are now getting married and having kids, ect... and I'm not being told... the group of them are involving each other as bridesmaids and at baby showers and all sorts of things... and I'm not invited, not included.
These girls were my lifeline in school, got me thru a lot of hard times, and I understand I probabily didn't do all that I could to keep as strong a bond, but I was the first one out of the group to get married and have a kid. Things change when that happens. My Ex was kind of controlling to so that probabily didn't help matters.... but it feels like I'm being punished and it sucks!